POETRY: Roberta Pantal Rhodes – A Lovely Walk

 

A Lovely Walk

 
We stroll along the
Appian Way. The air
fragrant with the scent
of pine. It is peaceful
with no hint of the past,
of bodies hanging
from crosses.  Just this
lovely walk along
The Appian Way.

We continue on
to the Colosseum still
standing after all
these years. We marvel
at the engineering, perfectly
round, built without
computers or engineers,
just the slaves who
put it all together.  And
for what, the slaughter
of Christians.

And lastly, the Roman
Forum.  The Arch of
Titus celebrating the
destruction of Jerusalem
where now only, the Wailing
Wall remains.

They say the Barbarians
destroyed Rome: the Goths,
the Visigoths, Vandals, Angles, Saxons,
Franks, Ostrogoths and Lombards
but I ask, who are the Barbarians?

 

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FICTION: Chella Courington – McCarthy and Woolf

McCarthy and Woolf

 

Tom sat at the round kitchen table reading Blood Meridian for the third time. Adele placed slices of orange in front of him.

“Have you finished Mrs. Dalloway?” she asked.

He paused—a pause not there when he was teaching. Finally, he looked up, the novel still open.

“Almost.” And looked down again, turning the page.

How could he say so little, almost, and that was it, that was all. He had lived with her fifteen years, he knew she adored Woolf, especially Clarissa, and all he could say was almost, one word as if it were enough.

Wanting to scream, Adele stood nearly twenty seconds, her hands squeezing the rail of the chair before she sat across from him. He mumbled or she thought he mumbled and his carriage hardened, sensing what was coming.

“What do you think?” she asked.

He breathed in this deliberate manner that bordered on a groan.

“It’s a bit slow. The writing is lovely but Woolf doesn’t pull me in,” he said, his finger holding his place in McCarthy.

Lovely. She wanted to hit him. She wanted to talk about how the novel slips from the present to the past and back again, how everyone has a point of view even the girl selling petticoats, how the miracle of existence culminates in Clarissa at the top of the stairs.

He could see her lips tightening, her presence receding. Closing his novel, he said,

“Sorry. That was a bit glib. The language is pure as one image unfolds into another. But she reads like a performance, a spectacle.” He pushed his chair back so he could cross his legs.

“Spectacle?” she asked. “What the hell do you mean? You read about massacre and bloodshed and then call Woolf spectacle because Woolf’s not killing for her audience’s attention.”

“Woolf killed Septimus,” he said.

“Asshole.”

He knew enough not to smile.

Adele walked to the fridge and grabbed a bottle of water; maybe she’d throw it at him or shatter the glass and stab him. On the walnut coffee table they bought at a garage sale in Ventura was the most recent Harper’s, which reports that a team of forensic engineers at The University of Leicester measured the amount of force used in bottle stabbings and called it effectively phenomenal. She twisted the cap off the bottle and sat down across from Tom.

“God. I want to hit you,” she said.

Closing the novel again, he looked up at her and scratched his cheek, waiting.

“Ever hit a woman?” she asked.

“Does my sister count?”

“No.”

She drank some water. The fridge started up and she turned and watched it before looking back at him. Why does he always have to be a smartass? He’s so good at so much. But his silence hurts, leaves me feeling stranded. (Long before they met, her then boyfriend and she started drinking Bloody Marys at Myrtle Beach in the early afternoon. The next morning she woke with a splitting headache, nose swollen and raccoon eyes. X-rays showed no skull fracture. Adele told everyone she fell on the pier. The boyfriend bought her roses.)

Tom pushed the novel away, still staring at her.

“I’ve never slapped a woman,” he said, “though sometimes I’ve wanted to. But I feel guilty enough.”

 

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POETRY: Jeffrey Field – One Black Soldier

One Black Soldier

 

Summer, 1966.

I am trying to take
a Polaroid picture
of one black soldier
doing the Ali shuffle
outside the barracks
at Fort Sam Houston
in San Antonio, Texas.

He will not hold still.

“Viet Nam, here I come!”

He is 19 years old,
bobbing and weaving
up and down
the barracks’ steps,
smile as wide as Texas.

Hey! Hold still a minute wouldya?

Okay… Now!

The print slides from the camera.
A minute later he is grinning at me,
fists frozen in air,
the world’s greatest.

“Yeaaahhh! We gonna whip old Charlie’s tail!”

Pop! Pop!! Pop!!!
His fists smack the air as he
ducks and dodges
through the jungles of Viet Nam.

He is 82nd Airborne.

He is my friend.

One year later –
I’m stationed at Valley Forge General Hospital at
Phoenixville, Pennsylvania.
I work nights on orthopedic ward 5.
There are strange, sucking noises
coming from the ward

as I
sterilize the medicine carts.
Broken femurs.
Maggot-eaten men.

I keep my distance.

One morning,
one black soldier
wheels himself along the
polished wooden hallway.
His stumps end
high on boxer’s legs,
six inches above the knee.

Our eyes touch.

I want to disappear.

We shake hands.
Smile still as wide as Texas,
yet,
(we both silently understand)
not the same smile.
He tells his story.
As he speaks my mind begins to wander…
those two white-bandaged phantoms are
waving the air,
waving at me?
telling a different story,
speaking the body’s agony of being
blown
apart
while on night patrol in the
jungles of Nam.

Ascuncian,
the Hawaiian GI
who bunked on the cot
under me
at Fort Sam,
(whom I never liked
because,
one day,
for no apparent reason,
he threatened me,
and then he slammed me,
hard,
against the latrine wall)
was ripped into
two pieces,
machine gun fire
raking across his back
from an unseen enemy
embedded in the jungle.

A year never seemed so far away.

My friend
has brought the war
home.
I grudgingly accept it.
I take it to
my barracks’ room
and sleep with it.
I wake up with it
that afternoon.
I strap it to the back
of my motorcycle.
I ride the back roads of the
Amish countryside.
I bury it beneath a
dying
red sun.
Summer’s greens turn gray,
as a Polaroid picture
of one black soldier
burns a hole in my heart.

 

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POETRY: Jon Huerta

a long poem about finally giving up

thinking about
the torn up quilt
that was way
too old to keep
the sleeping bag
had seen better days
it would have turned
twelve this week
really missing that
sacred navajo rug
that was in
the back seat
and that worn out
Kelty pack i got when
i was seventeen
all located in the
beat up truck that
was found down
the street
the radiator was
leaking anyway
makes that squeaky
sound when she speaks
much too nerve racking
for any thief
shit i should have
given up years ago
finally had enough
and jumped ship
for someone even
less fortunate than me

 

–––––

 

Vinton, New Mexico/Texas Border

day in day out
watching the sea
of cotton grow
the morning glory
no too far behind
dew so thick
it would cling
to your clothes
like you had
just jumped
into the rio grande
mosquito’s thirsty
for fresh booze
heavy blood
the sun so hot
it turned black hair
blonde

 

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POETRY: Sara Cooper, Robin Wyatt Dunn, Howie Good

Sara Cooper

Knot

In the lobby on the eleventh floor
of the courthouse where we’ve come to be wed
an upscale call girl lacquers her nails more
for the intoxicating fumes than red

so that, dismayed, the secretary who
leads us to the judge—clenching a bouquet
of legally binding forms—says, Can you
believe what people do? And I say no

and then I say yes and you and always
without taking off my coat. Out the window:
horizon of complicated freeways,
each leading somewhere, but mostly

throbbing at the knot; two pillars of factory
smoke, focused at first, lose their discrete
     forms and diffuse into more gray sky.

 

–––––

 

Robin Wyatt Dunn

Breakfast

Pancakes meditate upon themselves
And I meditate upon the end,
Mother on the dishes.

Outside, sunlight is dreaming in a cousin-language.

 

–––––

Howie Good

Subzero

In the dark subzero hours of early morning,
I have been woken up by yips & squeaks,
coyote pups trying to keep warm. I lie there
and listen, & then I am no longer the color of tears.

 

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POETRY: Antionette Nena Villamil – The Advantage of Sexual Cannibalism

 

The Advantage of Sexual Cannibalism

I give a home to the black widow spider
so she can spin a web of strong silk thread
in peace, her webs like comfy beds to seduce
and then kill and devour her mate, to make the choice
to take him out or let him be. Do I want him
as a suitor or as a snack? And when an ex-lover
calls to say that I am pathologically
incapable of being honest with
him, I recall his fear that my darkest
corner was home to a lady in a shiny leather coat
and stilettos, a woman who, if coaxed with a hand
tender and a mouth patient, would surely turn
and face him without striking, expose
her belly and reveal that hourglass of yawning
red, his disbelief that I let them live
with me in the icy maw of that winter, those nights
when I would let him into my
bed but not into my body—

Oh sweetheart, you should know that you were never
someone I cared about enough
to take the time
to destroy.

 

From Antionette’s forthcoming chapbook God Damned Mouth, published by Grandma Moses Press.

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POETRY: Personal – Dorine Jennette

 

Personal

Woman with two cats and fear of the ordinary seeks charmer with changeable eyes. I believe in cheese. You believe your own best moments. I enjoy paradoxes. You enjoy power tools. You take your coffee black and balance eggs on their narrow ends. You need not read. You hustle pool into an art form or a philosophy or both. If you’re a belligerent drunk, I’ll get in your car. Must love enactments of martyrdom. Must sing along with songs about begging and knees. Must lie with conviction. Must refuse to leave.

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