War. 

War. 

I think of it often, 

dream of it even, the honor, the stories of men who gave up their tomorrows, so that others could keep theirs. 

But then reality sets in and the horror shines through. How saving a life is easy, but taking one is so much easier. 

War. 

Brothers in arms, fighting for places they may never even see again. Some return to warm homes and open arms, but many never leave the sights of their rifles. 

Those men, those boys, those sons, they bear the weight, and make the sacrifices, that most of us don’t have the courage, to even imagine. 

 War. 

I battle with the thought of war. 

Wrestle with it in the quiet moments, fighting tooth and nail. Against the truth it asks of people. How does anyone send their child, into a place where children are lost. How do you ask a heart to grow so cold, to take a life not so different from theirs. 

And yet, I dream of war. 

I dream of glory, of stories plastered into memory, of standing in a place, where fear and duty meet. I dream of the moment where, courage stops being a word, but becomes what I feel in my own hands. 

Dreams however never come alone. 

They drag their shadows with them, The weight of blood and silence, the nights that stretch too long, and the faces you never forget, no matter how bad you want to. 

War. 

Every dream has a cost, and every cost has a name. 

And so here I stand between both worlds, the dream of the nightmare, knowing war is made of both, and being unsure of which one is calling my name louder. 

War. 

Theres a side of war often unspoken, the weight left behind, the moments that remind you that courage, comes with a cost. 

The burden carried by sons, who left home with soft hearts, only to come home with calluses, where the heart had to be torn. 

Not all they bring back is darkness, but none of it comes easy.

They come home changed, marked by lessons learned, in places most will never stand. 

Because dreams lift you up, but nightmares know how to stay. And the sons who bore those nightmares carry them so that the rest of us, never have to. 

War.

Its the dream i hope never comes true.