L.A. Uomo
My attention is a bowl,
Every distraction a freshly
Washed grape jumping frenzied—
Slippery in its will to explore—
Bouncing off any surface.
As when a man on Wilshire Boulevard
Unburdened his head of a Dodgers cap—
Hair oils and sweat tie-dyed
Its discolored blue—
Frisbeeing it on the grassy verge
Delineating the realm of the walking and driving,
And I worried less about whether or not
He would jerk his cock out in time
To burst on the agave leaves,
And more about the sharp
Of its needles perforating
His uncircumcised flesh, blood-gush
As teeth through grape-skin.
It came out as the rain
That falls whenever it wants to
Not went it’s most needed;
People in cars swerved, unnerved.
In my 33 and a third years
Of living in LA,
I never bothered
To spend money on rain boots.
I overheard another man
Tell his blonde girlfriend:
What else do you think people do
When they move to LA to find a job?
Before he could sip his coffee,
A cyclist zoomed by sneakily,
Too chickenshit to ride on the road.
To wonder why I care about it all—
The neglected that hides,
The hidden that wants to be forgotten,
And the forgotten that wants
Nothing more than to be noticed again—
Is my struggle to look away, and still look;
Too see what I can see, yet remain unseen.
How easy it seemed to empty
Yourself of your innermost waste
On the sidewalk for all to see—
Yet as empty as you’d walk away,
The bowl would always be full of fruit.
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nuage un
You want me to be a good boy;
You want me to keep a secret;
You want me to just try it;
You want me to trust you completely when you completely mistrust;
You want me to choose;
You want me to be as faithful as I’ve been unfaithful;
You want me to lie to myself to live your truth;
You want me to be as bad as you;
You want me to come;
You want me to figure you out;
You want me to forgive you for things you haven’t done but will even though you know we’ve been there before;
You want me to abort preconceived notions of you;
You want me to take it;
You want me to like it;
You want me to chase after you when you’re too afraid of saying what you really think;
You want me to believe that you don’t say what you want to say because you fear regret, even though your silence hurts more than words it fails to suppress;
You want me to be as good as you think yourself to be;
You want me to be the bigger person;
You want me to accept your apologies, all your apologies regardless of how unnecessarily stupid they are;
You want me to be thankful for your all understanding, all-encompassing compassion to bypass my flaws, all of my flaws;
You want me to beg;
You want me to watch what I say;
You want me to shut up;
You want me to forget how childish you can be when it comes to playing games;
You want me to fix you with love even though you’re the one who does all the breaking;
You want me to be me;
You want me to be like you;
You want me inside of you;
You want me to be yours;
You want the me that isn’t me.
Reblogged this on Jose Oseguera and commented:
Please head over to Cacti Fur and check out my latest poems: “L.A. Uomo” and “nuage un.”
Any thoughts or comments would be greatly appreciated.
Thank you ❤
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This is a deep look at the self-behind-the-mirror. Nice work, Jose.
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